Girl With A Watering Can

Things are going horrible lately. I feel like I'm just wasting my time and energy. I have played a tonne all night and have a huge headache, unfortunately the results were not there.

I thought a lot about it, and I decided to take a mature decision and stop it here. The way it's been going lately is driving me nuts and I know how easy it is to lose $2K-3K in a night and I don't want to jeopardize money already made for the project in such a small time frame, so every time I play I feel huge pressure and that's the last thing a poker player should feel when playing. It wouldn't be very smart and I just am
not feeling it at all.

On to the results for the month, it started ridiculously awesome but went to shit real fast. I've basically been breaking even for the past two weeks. I've been playing ridiculously good though and I honestly cannot blame myself for this because I am fully aware that it's just bad luck/variance.

Played a bunch of tournaments this month and came close to some big scores 2 times but it didn't happen.
I will be playing my last tournament for the month this Sunday on PokerStars (Sunday Million, biggest prizes for an online tournament) and this will be it for me, the project and July. I need a break.


End profits for the month: $12,000. So that's $6000 going to Toby. I did my best, now it's in your hands Toby.


I would like to thank every one who has supported me through this and all of you who read my blog. Feel free to drop me a comment here and/or on last.fm (username is Caliban51) they will be very appreciated.


Finally, here are two graphs about the month for those who might be interested.

This first one is basically number of hands/profits. The Green line is the one that counts (the profits). This graph is missing $5000 near the middle in profits that I made from other computers when I had my PC problems aforementioned.




This second graph is pretty important in determining if you are either playing bad or running bad (being unlucky). It shows how much money you've won when you went all-in and how much money you should have won mathematically if the luck factor was squeezed out. It shows that I made $4K in all-in winnings instead of $8K. I guess Lady Luck doesn't like maudlin of the Well all that much.



Gonna go make my donation now, Toby if you are going to credit me in any way, please use my name and not the one on paypal because I'll be using my mother's credit card because mine's limit isn't high enough for this transaction.


Have a nice summer everyone,


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They Aren't All Beautiful

I'm choosing a somewhat fitting song title for this blog entry :P. People who don't play poker tend to think that we have nothing to worry about and have an easy life with the money we make at this game, as if the money was falling from the sky. How hard can it be to play cards and have the possibility to make more than a doctor if you are a successful player? They think it's easy. I can't tell you how wrong they are.

Sometimes this game can be such a mindfuck. I don't want to elaborate on this but it can get really really hard on your mental, especially if you don't have proper balance in your life to help get through it. And you need the right people around you as well. I am glad I have some people that I care about to get my mind off poker.

That said, I haven't updated my blog in a while because not much interesting has been happening. Since I've had PC problems I cannot post the graphs like I said I would unfortunately but don't worry I know exactly how much I made. I am up around $13,500 right now for the month, which is not too bad but at the same time if we consider I was up almost this much more than a week ago it's not very fun. But that's poker, and I mentioned it in the introduction post, there's nothing you can do about it except play your best. You can win a lot very fast just like you can have dry spells for a while or huge losing sessions even if you are making the right decisions.

Let's hope this last week goes well, I am craving for some new motW songs! Wish me luck guys.

Birth Pains Of Astral Projection

Tough night. Guess it was going too well to be true, can't win every single day. It wouldn't affect me all that much if it wasn't for this project. Oh well.

Picture won't show for some reason. I am down a total of $3000 tonight. Tough luck, hope I can recover in the next days, would become quite painful if it kept going down from now.

Geography

No progress lately. My PC crapped out on me and after I fixed it, it asked me to activate my copy of Windows Vista or it kicks me out. Lesson to you folks; buy your operating systems. Soooo I ordered one and am waiting for it to arrive.

During that time I cannot play much, I am using my moms laptop to play some tournaments here and there but so far I've had no luck at all in them.

Think i'm up around $11,500 so far for the month so at least there's that.

Sleep is a Curse

I've had this song in my head all day. My brother kept humming it.

Hey guys. Quick little update on how I'm doing so far. This week has been really good to me, but this game is incredibly sick. As I am typing this I am feeling quite frustrated with how my day went, tells you how hard it can be on your emotions sometimes. But whatever, even though it was an horrible day I've had an amazing week. Let's keep hoping I can pull it off, but so far it is looking REALLY good.

Also, I haven't been able to play as much as I wanted to. The weather is too nice here and my brother came and visit me for the whole week.

The Ferryman

Things are going great guys, I am still going strong. There is hope, lots of it.

I am playing a GREAT game. I'm not one to brag but it is absolutely ridiculous how bad people are at poker and the edge that I have in those games, let's hope it keeps going my way, I need it more than ever.

We're at the beginning of day 4 and I am already up $5000+ which is kind of ridiculous. This isn't sustainable on a large sample of hands though, unfortunately.

Thanks for the support everyone, as usual.

A Curve That To An Angle Turn'd

Yeah my titles will be motW songs. How cool? Very.

Day 1 started folks, I'm feeling much better now. I'm tired though so I didn't play as much as I wanted to today, I will try to play 2500 hands at least every day though.

I also won't update daily because it is annoying and meaningless, but i'll update my results for tonight just because we're off to a decent start (which is still meaningless but whatever).